Fush !

I know the blog has been a little empty without much usage of pictorials . Well , I have two camera's and they are both fucked . My LCD in the Sony gave up on me while every photo I take on my Olympus , is kinda hazy . Just like how I feel at the moment .. I guess the lesson learnt , when you own a camera and live on an island , dropping it in the water may not be a good idea . It fucks up .

Anyway , I now live in the midst of a forest .. After months of being on an island , it is quite a change in scene . Instead of crystal clear bluish waters , you are rewarded with pristine green mountains . Life can't get better than this ..I feel so at home out here 

Have been working hard on our new company Fuze Outdoor Events and quite alot of things are taking place . Chasing dreams and making them happen . It is gonna be quite an extra ordinary experience . 

We have got some great people being a part of this project and I will write more about it all when I get some photos in place 

There is only one focus in my life at the moment 

Be invincible ..

My middle fingers are so perfectly formed that I have begun having a passion in flashing them every now and then to the things that slow me down 

It's gonna be a one man battle in keeping it real ..

I promise to write more guys , my apologies to all those who messaged me feeling a little disappointed with the lack of activity in the blog . I just can't find inspiration to write and even when I do , I end up smoking a shit loads of Sampoerna cigarettes and look out of the window wondering what the fuck I am to blag about this time .. But for your sake , I will blag and blog and blig and bleg . Whatever the fuck it means ..

One love people !

Where were you ? Right here !

Reading back on the previous posts .. it feels like I was a little lost somewhere along the way :)

Well , quite alot happened in the past weeks 

Drinks , girls , hospitals , stitches , police .. fuck me , it almost feels complete :)

Just wanted to say hello and thanks to everyone for all the wishes ..

Things are looking better and I will write soon when I am done with the move ..

Harder , Better , Faster , Stronger - Yeah baby !

Till then ..

One love !! xx

Being free

It's not about the money , it's also not about the trend

Well ... it's all because it's not about the money 

It's about the bliss

How do you achieve it , when noone ever gets it 

But Incubus , got it

Might be 

For a moment , or a phase

As Brandon said it

They got it , they will know how to get back to it 

And if they have effort

They will fuckin' get it

But for those who don't realise it

It's like you are still jackin' it on the Matrix

The Matrix has All of us 

Break free ..

Follow your heart

Judge properly

On what is right and what is wrong

Follow your heart

And that will be freedom

Freedom is Nirvana

Ending

Sit Heng Yeen

A nudge !

I don't wanna fuckin' write shit in here no more ..

This is fuckin' bullshit and if you are reading this , you are so fuckin' ill 

Don't you have something better to do ?

I am so fuckin' not on it ..

Hahaha .. I am laughing 

You wanna get personal .. I give you personal 

I don't want it to rhyme

I don't want it to make sense

I just want you to get a life 

Don't read shit from Trippy and Twisted no more

Pick a hobby , pick a liking

Don't be a follower , be a leader

I am such a pussy ..

I am down , so fuckin' down

All because of a grin

Judge me bitch .. you can have my middle finger 

Hard to accept .. but this is the reality of it all

Don't fall in love

Fall on brotherhood 

Be on it 

Be real

Be transparent

See through .. a fuckin' glass

I am so fuckin' untouchable

I don't need you no more 

Be offended and fuck off 

Don't come back and read this shit 

One love x

Idle

I have been sitting on this round table listening to this song on repeat 

I feel like a day of the English weather

I am out of cigarettes and I am out of ammo

I am out of energy and slowly running out of passion

The only thing that seems to make sense at this moment

Is this song .. 

Time traveling

I strum the guitar proper hard

Still not satisfied with the distortion 

Turn it up , let's wake the neighbours

Yeah , that's my question 

What the fuck right ?

Cause I really don't give a fuck

Get some RATM , it should do the job

If not now ,When ?

I often am tempted to start every post with the word 'wow' 

But today , everything feels far and drifted 

It's like rowing against a very strong under current 

I keep paddling but I don't seem to reach where I wanna be 

But then again , I know .. everything will be fine :)

This is a little piece I wanna share 

It is not aimed at anyone and is not related to anything

Used to sit staring out at the rainbows

Pictured myself surfing it , from one side to the other

Me , my rip curls and waving dreads

Vibrant colours , erratic and inconceivable

Little did I expect I’d meet someone

Instead of surfing , I was sitting there with

Looking down on the marvel , smiling wide

Ideal , picture perfect where time was perpetuity

Rampaging through bamboo forests

I saw you grin with that dimple

As we took tenure of our new found glory

The birds sang to our new peak of emotions

Love how life settles in when you least expect

You brought comfort and assurance

Ideally fit in that one missing puzzle

The depiction of waking up feeling absolute

Do you remember climbing those rocks

Sitting there while the sunset over the hills

You didn’t have to say much

Although it felt like I knew you from somewhere

An awakening , an inspiration to chase my reveries

Feeling where dreams were made possible again

A shadow to match and a hand to hold

A stranger within and a collective soul

Watching you smile time and time again

As you often parked yourself perfectly next to me

Eyes glowing with a million mysteries

Being together really felt like eternity

Waking up everyday feeling like I had everything I ever wanted

As you lay there next to me , our hands still in one piece

So much has changed , I feel like I am losing myself

What the fuck really just happened

I am gonna miss you ..

We meet some people in our lives for a reason

Although I wish we had moved on a different bearing

I am longing for you to keep that smile

That smirk that I could draw – almost perfectly

It could not have been more wonderful

But now is time for me to leave this space

The past we shall carry with awesome memories

I love you baby . If not now , when ?

Dig that ground

In the last week , I had some mails from the readers of this blog asking me why I had moved on to a more commercial way of writing and said I had lost my personal touch to the site .

Well , I thank you guys for the note as it really made me think and reflect on why this had happened . I came up with the conclusion that everything I have been doing for the last year has got something to do with someone else interest

I am keen to know that someone actually pays attention to what is happening in my life . Although a little scary but what am I complaining about huh ? I am the one who started this blog but by doing so , I sometimes get very confused on why I had begun writing out here on the world wide web for people of all walks of life to interpret .

The worst toilet in Scotland

I was definitely seeking some sort of comfort 

But the problem is - I don't know what it is ..

Maybe I just like writing ..

Or just maybe , it feels like I get things out of my system 

This blog is a toilet bowl , I shit in it

And then I flush it out to you guys 

Enjoy it while it last :)